I am not what you see.....

I am not what you see

I am fake

It’s my protection

My shield against rejection

It’s how I look for affection

I am not what you see

I live a lie

It’s to keep you away

It’s about surviving today

It’s to keep strong feelings at bay

If I told you what I’ve seen

If I told you what I’ve been

If I told you what I’ve heard

If I told about the touches I’ve felt

If I told about the ugly odours I’ve smelt

You would be shocked if you really knew me

You could judge me

You would think me weak

You could avoid me

You would think me too dramatic

I have weighed up all up

I have done pros and cons

I have been back & forth

It’s too big a risk to be real

Much better to smile hide and not feel

 

Life often encourages us to hide our pain and suffering, especially if the risk is that we will be judged on it and not on the amazing person we are, despite what we have endured.

We all need to be ready to notice others pain and have the courage to acknowledge it and accept it is a part of the person we know.

 

 Jane EvansSpecialist Parenting and Behaviour Skills Consultant
Twitter: @janeparenting
Website: www.parentingposttrauma.co.uk